I fail

3.26.04
2.22am

I forget you didn't care
Not anymore, like you did before
I forget you make it hurt
When you walked out the door

I forget you make it ache
Ten times as it was back then, now
I thought you'd never remember to leave my side
But I remember you never forgot how.

I forget to hold you to make you stay
But I know you don't want my touch
I remember the tears of anguish that subsided
...it hurts. I wish I could just forget how much.

I forget to smile
I forget to say the right words to you
But you forget I still can't fly,
And my wings cannot be re-bought, anew.

I forget to live
And truly smile instead of cry
And I remember you walk away
I remember each time my broken heart has to die.