..not ok

..I've not been feeling like myself for the last day or so. Coming to the realization that this is real and he's gone is hitting me hard.
This is exactly what I wanted.
And it hurts. It hurts thinking I have to leave. REALLY have to leave. To move. REALLY have to move. To watch him move into his own place, FOR REAL. Go through court, REALLY go through it all.
..
I guess I'll start packing.