hate...

I have so much negativity in my head lately.
Fortified by being weak. Unable to just walk away.
I hate my life.
I hate my job.
I hate waking up. Eating. Doing anything.
I hate being.
I hate going out.
I hate being alone.
and I hate being with others.
I hate Christopher.
I hate everything.
I wish the earth would swallow me up.
I wish I had the courage to end my life.
because I hate being here.